Thursday, July 3, 2008
BIG YAY for msts are finally over. Oleh!
but, there are still presentations.. reports... assignments to be done!
oh Man....!! sighh..
keeping having this thinking that tomorrow's holiday. what to do? Just smile! :)
I'm just too used to having holidays right after exams. hahhas.. what a big weirdo i am. Whutever! Self-declared holidays!
I always have lots of things i wanna type here... but once i come to the "posting page", i seem to like have a mental blockage. I cannot remember what i wanna say.. or anything interesting that happened during the day. maybe my brain dislikes me sharing my private thoughts and stupid encounters with others. my brain got a mind of her own.. haha!
Lately, my memory is getting real bad.. I just cant rmb anything?!
My appetite's not that good too...
feeling very hungry out of a sudden and then when the food comes..
a mouthful or two and i will already feel full. Real full.
sigh.. whats wrong with me?
I feel that I've change. to become another person... a person that is so unlike me. The things I say, the actions I do.. they are so..... something.. whats the word to use?
I have no motivation to do things and yet set high standards for myself.
I'm killing myself. Mentally..
who can i blame but myself?
I don't know whats the cause of all this but I'm very sure I can handle it.
i know i can.... can't i?
I have asked myself what I want many many times before, and yes i got an answer. but sometimes i doubt myself.. What if its not what i really want? and if so, what do i really want then?
Many what ifs..... and the answer will be still left ambiguous.
I think i have a sickness called Depression.
Aarghh!!