Thursday, May 28, 2009
it's friday again tomorrow
another week has passed..
1 more week older.
happy. yeah
LOL
i think since this year started, i've been constantly thinking.. and wanting very much to enter ntu.
but its, like, kind of difficult... unless my GPA for this yr (which is the last year) to be like 3.8, to be able to pull my points up.
now, i really wished time could turn back to when i was in year 1 so i could work hard and get like damn high grades.. THEN i wouldn't have to suffer now!
but, what's done is done. so yeah.. face it, RY :)
i would just need to work harder....
sounds easy ya.. but NOT!
"try to achieve MERIT. i know its not easy, but only when on the graduation day then you'll realise the good of it" as quoted by the CSfW (Communication Skills for Work) teacher.
Only the top 5% each course can get it.
come on la.
i can already name those who WILL get it.
it is all already confirmed.
so there goes... bye.
i can only try to get higher points for this semester and the next.
somehow, i don't know when it began, i start to dislike teachers who have the idea of us.. students of diploma in chemical processing...to work right after getting the diploma.. as laboratory technicians, chemist, etc.
But WHY?
can't we continue to further our studies? like, overseas or in local Unis?
no way no way no way am i going to get a full-time job after getting my diploma...
it's like, aging too quickly..
like a five-year-old kid having wrinkled skin of an old woman..
i wanna study man!
though, studying..........sucks.. sometimes.
BUT, somehow to me..
studying equals...
- still young
- parents still supporting me
- being protected, cared for like a small child
I don't know, sounds weird right.
yeah, I'm weird...
but who doesnt want their parents to nag at you, give you money, asks "how's school today?", wakes you up every morning, prepares breakfast for you, and also dinner, washes your dirty school clothes, fetching you with an umbrella through the rain to the bus stop, waits with you and only leaves when you're safely onboard the bus, says "eat already anot?" when you first step into our house, asks if you have enough money, wakes up even earlier than before to fetch you to school just because you're late or if it's raining heavily............
the list just goes on, forever and ever..
I WISHED I COULD BE A CHILD in my parent's arms, like forever!
don't you?
sigh.
another question on my mind, since forever..
what will happen to me in the future, without my parents by my side?