Sunday, August 2, 2009
so many things have happened within this short while...
and i have seen quite alot.
and from what i experienced and saw..
i conclude that no one will truly treat a person well...
for nothing in return.
somehow i feel that we're all trained to be like that from young.
including me.
(to me my parents are the only exceptions)
i truly truly believe that early childhood learning is EXTREMELY important!
what we become today...
is affected by factors:
-how your parents treat you/their actions
-how your friends treat you/their actions
-surrondings
-belief
and i strongly believe that every child is born innocent and as plain as a piece of white paper..
flawless and pure.
example - parents:
child being abused from young
grows up and abuse his own children
example - friends:
the "famous" gang always wears branded goods
gets respect from everyone
everyone wants to be part of them
the child learns that fame is very important
must get branded goods to be famous
example - surrondings:
from young, the child is taught to steal
if lucky enough,
grows up to steal for a living
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I'm tired.
really tired..
the good things i see are not enough to cover the bad ones..
i am so disappointed in my life
always when comes talking about this..
to my mother
or thinking about it myself..
i feel like crying.
am i depressed?
i think i am.
someone help me pls......
then again, please don't help me.
if you want something in return.
just get lost.
*#$%^&*!
sometimes
i tell myself
to be optimistic
so i tell myself
"it's good that i see this kind of ppl so i can learn from them.. don't follow them. Like when i dislike how they do things, i dont follow how they do it."
"Life gives me a chance to learn from them so i won't be like them.. not everyone has a chance like that."
"luckily i'm not like that. i'm better. sad for you"
"try to help them. tell them their "not so gd" points.. if they dont change, nvm. i tried my best already. short term, i suffer... but long term. gd luck. "
but before i can really cheer up and get over it...
homework, projects, exams come quickly.
making me too busy to think about it
only when im alone...
too bored..
or worse
when it happens again..
it really piss me off
make me so angry that i really feel like killing someone.
sucks la.
dont want to continue already.